I'm 28 and had my spinal fusion 12 years ago, never really exercised, and I am sick of feeling stiff; I just don't know where to begin, what is safe - just machines like treadmills and bikes, or just yoga moves and weights? Can anyone guide me in the right direction?
Read MoreOver the past two weeks, I awaken each morning and have about 3 seconds of “ahhhhh”, and then I remember that we are in the midst of a very scary global pandemic—and my “ahhhhh” turns to “uggggh”. I immediately reach for my phone to look at the numbers in my area. Then I look at charts and updated graphs. I think about how ‘flattening the curve’ sounds like a principle from a Yoga for Scoliosis class. I try to not feel despair for all the people out there who don’t have the same privileges as me; for the huge numbers of people who are ill and struggling for breath; for the impending disaster heading for third-world ghettos where physical distancing is impossible; for the people on the front lines in the hospitals who are putting their lives at risk, etc, etc. I try to not cry.
I wonder what to do. Is there a way I can help?
Read MorePart 31 of Martha’s Healing Journey
“The body does not need to be corrected. It needs to be understood.”
This is what my friend and osteopath, Simon, said to me today as he gave me a treatment. It made me sigh, then smile, then frown. I immediately wondered if there was any chance my teenage scoliotic body could have been better ‘understood’ – rather than ‘corrected’ through dramatic fusion surgery – so many moons ago…
But I digress.
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Throughout this blog, I have been writing about my healing journey, starting with the removal of my Harrington rods in 1995 when I was 35 years old — until today, where I am quickly approaching 60. Eek!
In some ways, I feel in better shape now than I was back then. That is because, regardless of the increasing wrinkles, extra flab, and age spots, I am much more mindful and aware about all aspects of my ‘soma'—my entire physical, emotional, intellectual, spiritual being—than I have ever been before. Part of this has to do with life experience, but most of it is due to my constant search for different ways to be comfortable with my mostly uncomfortable fusion.
Yoga for Scoliosis, and yoga in general, has helped me tremendously, but I continue to find new layers of the ‘healing onion’ to explore.
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A few weeks ago, I went to bed feeling fine.
When I tried to stand up the next morning, I was completely crooked.
I had such a sharp pain in my right sacroiliac joint that I was forced to tilt way over to the left, which made me feel completely crippled. I limped to the washroom, mumbling to myself about how this was impossible, and then dragged myself back to bed. I was fine the night before... What happened in my sleep?
Shit!!
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Recently, I have been listening to many podcasts and watching Youtube videos exploring the Stress-Disease Connection by the acclaimed physician, speaker, teacher, and best-selling author, Dr. Gabor Maté. His talks are fascinating, sprinkled with insights from working as a physician, as well as his own personal experience dealing with addictions, depression, and anxiety. His research around trauma and healing intrigue me.
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Recently, thanks to my work doing private consultations, classes, workshops and retreats, I have been meeting many wonderful ‘scoliotics’ and ‘fusioneers’. I am always amazed at the stories we share, and I continue to admire the incredible resilience shown by every single person with this confounding condition.
Recently, I worked with a lovely woman in her mid-50s, who has lived and survived a very similar scoliosis story to me - more or less.
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In celebration of National Scoliosis Awareness month, I shared 10 Simple Exercises for Scoliosis and Fusions over the month of June via my slightly embarrassing but cute stick-figure drawings :)
They are truly simple, but they are also very effective. And they are accumulative.
The more you practice them, the more powerful they become.
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When it comes to scoliosis, patience is everything.
Action, determination, and patience.
And trust.
And rest.
AND MINDFULNESS.
At least that’s what it feels like to me.
Following my confession last month about a frustrating day of body awareness and transformation, it occurs to me that by calling it a ‘day’, I am not fully recognizing the truth of my frustrations around scoliosis.
They are constant.
CONSTANT.
But, so?
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This is a confession.
A confession in that as much as I am completely dedicated to exploring everything possible to help my body, it can be really hard.
Both physically and (sometimes even more) emotionally.
Part 23 of Martha’s Healing Journey
In my December 2018 blog post, I wrote about how I was starting to learn a gentle body-mind technique called Somatics. Since that time, I have continued to explore this work, finding many interesting and helpful connections.
Today, I want to follow up about my progress with addressing my own sensory motor amnesia, specifically regarding scoliosis.
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It has been almost 10 years since I started the Twisted Outreach Project for Backcare and Scoliosis (TOPS) — with the idea of sharing ‘twisty’ knowledge for scoliotic bodies.
Since then, we have held workshops, classes, lectures, performances, and many social gatherings. We have become a hub - in person and online - where folks with scoliosis can connect to teachers and scoliosis specialists of all kinds, simultaneously building knowledge and community. Our ever-growing mailing list includes people from around the world, with one student traveling all the way from Japan just to attend a weekend workshop!
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On New Year’s eve, I was chatting with my wonderfully ‘alive’ 83 year old mom. We were reflecting on the past year, and thinking ahead to 2019, when she asked: “So Martha, with all of your exploring of healing techniques, what do you think I should do next to look after myself… to be healthier; to feel better?”
That made me laugh out loud, as she is already more health-conscious and active than most people half her age - she does weekly pilates, senior’s exercise, regular massage, a yearly yoga retreat, walking, swimming, and more! Nevertheless, it got me thinking there is always more we can do for ourselves.
Part 20 of Martha’s Healing Journey
In my last blog about pain, I addressed how, for most people with scoliosis, pain is a constant companion. And although it may seem obvious that a compressed spine that curves and twists the body into a crooked position will cause some discomfort, it is not quite that simple.
In fact, it is well documented that a person's response to pain is heavily influenced by many individual traits, as well as the particular psychological, emotional and social factors affecting their life.
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Have you ever noticed that pain can be LOUD?
There have been a few times in my life when I have experienced such crazy ‘loud’ pain that I could not even think, or be, or feel anything -- except that pain
Part 18 of Martha’s Healing Journey
How the spine relates to all other joints.
Over the years, as I have worked on finding comfort and mobility in my fused spine, I have definitely felt things improve for the better.
Unfortunately, one day about 13 years ago, while moving a box up some stairs, I felt my left knee pop, and that incident was - unbeknownst to me at the time - the beginning of a new healing journey.
Part 17 of Martha’s Healing Journey
Summary of a recorded Skype discussion between Martha Carter and Kristen Fay Gorman
In my last blog, I detailed the most common surgical procedures used to correct scoliosis. Although advanced technology allows for successful spinal corrections with fusions and rods, I believe that most people would agree that it would be much better if we could stop scoliosis from developing at all!
Read MorePart 16 of Martha’s Healing Journey
Scoliosis is a really confounding condition! The more I try to explain it, the more I realize that it is full of contradictions.
Nobody knows why it happens, or who will get it. Given that every scoliosis is unique, the effects can be so different for each person, which of course makes it difficult to compare notes.
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Did you know that June is Scoliosis Awareness Month? And that June 30th is International Scoliosis Awareness Day… every year?
To mark this occasion, this blog is all about something I know very well: Fusions!
Read MorePart 14 of Martha’s Healing Journey
Since I had my Harrington rods removed, I have explored and discovered many therapies. Aside from Yoga for Scoliosis, which has been my main focus, there are three other popular Scoliosis-targeted exercise methods that are becoming more available and showing promising results.
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